Jason Tonoli

Ms.Vargo

English 4-AP

May 8, 2009

 

All Quite on the Western Front

 

The novel’s narrator and protagonist is Paul. Throughout the novel, Paul’s inner personality is contrasted with the way the war forces him to act and feel. His memories of the time before the war show that he was once a very different man from the despairing soldier. Paul is a compassionate and sensitive young man, before the war, he loved his family and wrote poetry. Because of the horror of the war and, Paul, like other soldiers, learn to disconnect his mind from his feelings, keeping his emotions at bay in order to preserve his sanity and survive. Kantorek is an important person as a focus of the authors bitter view of the ideals of patriotism and nationalism that drove nations into World War I. Stanislaus Katczinsky belongs to Paul’s company and  is Paul’s best friend in the army. Kat is forty years old at the beginning of the novel and has a family at home. He is a  very resourceful man and always finds food, clothing, and blankets whenever they are needed. The character I relate to the most would be Kantorek. I think this because I am very patriotic and I have a strong sense of nationalism as well.

        The main theme of this story is the horrors of war and also nationalism and political power. The theme relates to my life because in the book it talk a lot about nationalism and really paints it as a bad thing, although I disagree, I respect the authors vies on nationalism. Also I think the horrors of war has also relates to my life because I love watching war movies and reading the book really makes me feel bad for the men who had to  fight in the trenches of World War I.

 

        This book challenged my thinking in many ways. It made me think about how nationalism is not always a good thing, but can actually be very bad. I also learned the a lot about the affects of war on people, as the book progresses you ca n see the significant changes the characters go through. Seeing this has changed my mind on how if there was ever a war, I would join. Now I would still join but I would realize what I was getting into more, then I would have before reading this book.

 

Passage-

“We march up, moody or good-tempered soldiers – we reach the zone where the front begins and become on the instant human animals.”

         

The tone and mood almost throughout the whole book is that of depression, sadness, loss, and many more. The book is a full of death as well. The authors word choice is very big, with a list of words that I didn’t know myself, but also told how you would imagine, soldiers talk. Also uses a lot of imagery, and symbolism, for various things in the book like Iron and the river.

The authors style was a little to depressing to me, the book was very sad with a lot of death and this is just not my type of book. Although I did love the fact that it was about World War I. Also the view of many things in the book is different from how mine is. Overall the book is to sad and depressing for me, not my type of book.

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Jason Tonoli

Ms.Vargo

English 4-AP

May 06, 2009

 

Poem

The Firefighter’s Prayer

When I am called to duty, God, whenever flames may rage;

Give me strength to save some life, whatever be its age.

Help me embrace a little child before it is too late

Or save an older person from the horror of that fate.

Enable me to be alert and hear the weakest shout,

And quickly and efficiently to put the fire out.

I want to fill my calling and to give the best in me,

To guard my every neighbor and protect his property.

And if, according to my fate, I am to lose my life;

Please bless with your protecting hand
my children and my wife.

 

A truly good poem should stir emotions. It should also be something that has a lot of meaning when read. A poem should flow, and be easily read. When read it should not be confusing to the reader but easily read. Also when read it should bring strong emotions out of love, hate and many others. My poem full fills this entirely. When I read it, it brings out the emotion of thankfulness. It also has a lot of meaning as it talks about our fire fighters and the role they play in the community. Its not a t all confusing and flows greatly. I think this is a great poem and I really like it.

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Jason Tonoli

Ms.Vargo

English 4-AP

03 May 2009

Character Analysis

 

The Blue Yodel depicts a young man chasing a lover that abandons him to fly on a blimp, dropping clues for Pres, the young man, to find. Why does Clair abandon Pres right before they are to get married when everything seemed so perfect? Abandonment is often been thought of by most people, to be of a physical nature, as in desertion and neglect or primarily of an emotional nature – as in when a child is not nurtured or given the necessary attention and  love to feel safe(Gerlach, Peter). Both of these situations constitute forms of abandonment. Abandonment is many different things it can be a feeling of disconnection, a feeling of loss, and intense feelings of being devastated when a relationship ends, fearing loss so much that one is too afraid to even risk being connected and many other feelings of negativity. Pres clearly feels the feeling of being devastated when a relationship ends, as this is the fact of what happened, and maybe he can’t let go. So did Clair truly abandon Pres? The answer would clearly be yes, she did, with no letter no explanation she just left, leaving him behind, devastated.  

 

            If one has experienced the most prolific and painful wound of all, the core wound of abandonment without any balance for that experience, any subsequent loss and/or abandonment in life can turn your life upside down. Each and every loss or abandonment is experienced as it happens with the added pain of layers and layers of repressed pain and unresolved grief (A.J. Mhari). When Clair left Pres he certainly felt a very prolific and painful wound, and it did turn his life upside down as demonstrated throughout the book. He leaves his job is and home and buys a car to chase after the blimp his love is on. He chased it for more than 4 months, just driving after the blimp. Pres says himself his hands ache at the joints, his ankles have swelled, and his back hurt from hunching over the wheel (Blue Yodel 4). He is truly in pain because Clair abandoned him, not only physically but psychologically.

When a relationship ends, both partners experience turmoil and loss, but the one who is left feeling abandoned bears the brunt of the pain. Loving and wanting someone who does not love us back engenders a deep personal wound. Abandonment is primal fear, the first fear that each of us experience as an infant. It is the fear that we will be left, literally abandoned, with no one to care for us (Anderson Susan).  Pres really feel abandoned, loving Clair, though Clair does not love him back. She shows no signs of loving him.

The paradox of abandonment is the tendency to idealize the abandoner. He or she emerges in our imaginations as a powerful figure. We assume she must be very special to have caused this much torment simply by being absent (Anderson Sue). The intense craving is confusing. Stress hormones course through our bodies, causing a heightened response to anything related to our ex for a long time. An important thing to understand is there are five universal stages that accompany the loss of love: Shattering, Withdrawal, Internalizing, Rage, and Lifting. As we make our way through these stages of grief and recovery, we build self-esteem, resolve fear and self-doubt and restore the spirit (Anderson Susan).

 Pres does idolize Clair as being a very loving person and he thinks she is the most special person in the world and can’t stand being away from her. He is constantly thinking of past memories of her, of how perfect she is. He thinks of when the first meet, idolizing and showing how he thought how beautiful she was. He thinks of being with her watching the blimps and thinks she truly is the best person for him and how much he loves her, and he wants no one but her. By the time the end is coming near you can see him going through all the stages of loss of love as shown above.

He is shattered when he first finds her leaving. He withdrawals from everything he once was happy with, his job his house everything, and follows her across the country. He shows no sign of internalizing during the book, but does show rage, as he carries a gun on him at all times and even shoots at the blimp when he gets close to hit. And then he goes through lifting in every meaning of the word. He is actually lifted by the Blimps rope, he feels a sense of happiness when he finds the name of the blimp, bringing back child hood memories to him, and thinks that August, the name of the blimp as a time of rousing. In the end it is easy to see that he is joyful, he has forgotten everything else and is happy.

Clair does truly abandon him, hurting him both physically and psychologically. She abandons all her duties to him and everything that Pres thought they were to have together. She forces him to go through the pain of abandonment. Pres feels abandoned and puts her as someone very special and perfect, although her abandoning him shows she is not. He chases her across the country hoping for something that he cannot have.  He even shows some of the stages that happen to people when they are abandoned. She does not return and the end of the story is a mystery, maybe dying from falling off the blimp? No one will ever know, but it does not change the fact that Clair did truly abandon him.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Works Cited

A.J. Mahari. “What is Abandonment”. December 1, 2001. Border Line Personality Disorder.

May 4,2009 http://www.borderlinepersonality.ca/2006bpdandabandonwhatisabandonment.htm

 

 

Anderson, Susan.  “Dealing with Abandonment Issues”. 2003. New Living Magazines. May 4,   

            2009. http://www.newliving.com/issues/nov_2003/articles/abandon.html.

 

Gerlach Peter. “Perspective on Fear of Abandonment”. May 1, 2009. Break the Cycle.

            May 4, 2009. http://sfhelp.org/01/abandon.htm.

 

 

 

 

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Jason Tonoli

Ms.Vargo

English 4-AP
April 16, 2009

Controller

I chose a remote control because I am really controlling. Also I am the kind of person that when I want something to happen, I always make it happen no matter what and at any cost. When I set my mind to something it gets done. I think this controller I brought in is a very good representation of that because it controls the object it wants to control and makes it do its bidding.  I am not very proud of the fact that I am a control freak, but I don’t mind having the ability to set my mind to something and make it happen.  I think the controller is the same exact way when it wants the object it controlling to do something, it happens.

 

 

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Jason Tonoli

Ms.Vargo

English 4-AP

04-12-09

 

Catch-22

Part-1 The characters in the book all have major flaws or act like they do. Yossarian is the main character in the novel and is a paranoid bombardier who thinks everyone is trying to kill him. He fakes a liver cancer, poisons the squadron’s food, he even lines up in formation naked, and even breaking his bombers radio and ordering it to fly back. Dunbar is Yossarians crazy friend and bunk mate and is always causing trouble (he causes a riot in the hospital). Doc Daneeka is the doctor at the hospital and is always telling everyone how he hates being there and most the time he does nothing but makes his nurses do all the work, he is always has a sour attitude because he was drafted after just starting his own practice back in the US. Colonel Cathcart is the antagonist in the story. He is always trying to make his men like him, and is always trying to get promoted to general. He is always volunteering his men for dangerous missions and is always raising the amount of missions needed before the men can go home. At the end he offers Yossarian a ride home if he will tell everyone back in the US that he is a great leader. Out of all the characters the one I would relate to the most is Nately. Nately is a very young man that comes from a rich family. He falls in love with a girl in Rome and after he completes the required number of missions he signs for another to stay with the girl. He is also extremely patriotic and is an all around good guy. He also keeps Yosarian out of trouble, and is a very good looking guy. I say I am most relate to him because I am very patriotic. I love America very much and would die for my country if I was needed, and I get deeply upset when people talk bad about the US. I also think I am good looking, and I do keep my friends out of trouble, and have stopped friends from fighting and this is something he does for Yosarrian. I also think I am a romantic person like he tries to be, and he cares very much for his woman and I do to.

Part-2 One of the themes of this story that might relate to myself is the theme that selling someone out or lie get ahead faster and better than the people that play it straight. I think that this is a reality and I think that almost everyone has lied or sold someone out to get ahead in the world or in their business. I did this at my first job when my friend was eating from the salad bar while he was on the clock. I told my manager and he made me a shift runner so it was worthwhile. Even though it made my friend extremely mad he forgave me and told me he would do the same thing.

Part-3 This book has reinforced my thinking on how the military works and how it is probably extremely unfair and let me look at what pressure those bomber crews went through. It did make me look at some aspect of my life in a new way and that new way goes back to one of the themes of selling out others to get ahead in life. I think it is a horrible thing to do but I think that everyone will face it and/or do it to others. I think that people should learn just to play it straight and I think its sad that many people do this and I think there has to be alternatives to selling people out in order to get ahead in life. The only thing I really disagree with that is in the book most the characters were not patriotic and I think everyone should be patriotic.

Part-4

A.     “Clevinger? Where is Clevinger? You find Clevinger and I’ll ask him.”

“Then ask any of the others. They’ll tell you how crazy I am.”

“They’re crazy.”

“Then why don’t you ground them?”

“Why don’t they ask me to ground them?”

“Because they’re crazy, that’s why.”

“Of course they’re crazy,” Doc Daneeka replied. “I just told you they’re crazy didn’t I? And you can’t let crazy people decide whether you’re crazy or not can you?”

Yossarian looked at him soberly and tried another approach. “Is Orr crazy?”

“He sure is,” Doc Daneeka said.

“Can you ground him?”

“I sure can but first he has to ask me to. That’s part of the rule.”

“Then why doesn’t he ask you to?”

“Because he’s crazy,” Doc Daneeka said. “He has to be crazy to keep flying combat missions after all the close calls he’s had. Sure I can ground Orr. But first he has to ask me to.”

“That’s all he has to do to be grounded?”

“That’s all. Let him ask me.”

“And then you can ground him?” Yossarian asked.

“No, then I can’t ground him.”

“You mean there’s a catch?”

“Sure there is a catch,” Doc Daneeka replied. “Catch-22. Anyone who wants to get out of combat duty isn’t really crazy.”

There was only one catch and that was Catch-22, which specified that a concern for one’s own safety in the face of dangers that were real and immediate was the process of a rational mind. Orr was crazy and could be grounded. All he had to do was ask; and as soon as he did, he would no longer be crazy and would have to fly more missions. Orr would be crazy to fly more missions and sane if he didn’t, but if he was sane, he had to fly them. Yossarian was moved very deeply by the absolute simplicity of the clause of Catch-22 and let out a respectful whistle.

“That’s some catch, that Catch-22,” he observed.

“It’s the best there is,” Doc Daneeka replied.

B. In this passage the author has the mood set to comedy and sadness because they are all joking around about being grounded for going crazy and its like a joke but also they fully mean it and you can tell it makes them sad as well.  In the rest of the book he uses symbolism through the characters. I think a lot of the different characters mean a lot of different things. For example Nately would be the symbol for the patriotic American, while the Doc would be the symbolism for all the non patriotic people in the US and many more.

 

 

C. I really like the author’s style; he makes it very easy to read and has a bit of everything. He made the book very enjoyable and I couldn’t stop reading it at times and I really recommend it for others to read.

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Prologue

1. Thebes is obvioiulsy not doing so well thats why they ask for Oedipus help

2. Oedipus is obviuosly highly thought of to have the preist coming to solve their problems

3. I think its funny how they alwasy theought the “gods” were to blame for all the folly

4. I Laius is the man Oedipus killed on his way to Thebes

5. How we Oedipus not know that the man he killed was the king? DUH

First Episode

1. I think its generous offer that Oedipus wont kill whomever killed the King

2. Tiresias seems really weird and i think he knows something.

3. I think that Tiresias is weird and that Oedipus killed Laius its not that hard to tell

4. I dont think its fair for Oedipus to get so mad at Tiresias becuase its not his fault, Oedipus wanted the truth and thats what he told him

5. I think Oedipus is in denial and very upset

Second Episode

1 I dont think its fair that he is blaming Creon for what the old man told him

2. I think Creon is pretty smart himself, he makes a lot of sense, I wouldnt want to be king either

3.I think its good Jocastas told Oedipus to leave Creon alone or Creon would have gotten in trouble

4. So I dont get it. Does he got to Delphi to get the same prophecy as before?

5. I think its bad that Jocastas openly say the prophecies are not true, that means they will come true

Third Episode

1. I think that they all shouldnt be relieved yet of what the messanger brings

2. I think its kinda funny that they are all happy that the dad died and not sad

3. I think Jocasta saying that the prophecies are full of crap is not the best way to handle the situation

4.  I think its hilarious he wont go to mourn for his dad becuase he’s afraid he will get with his mom

5. I think Jocasta knows the truth

Fourth Episode

1 I think the mesanger is scared crapless of Oedipus

2 The messanger knows the truth  I think

3. Oedipus should just stop and go on with his life

4. I think Oedipus is an idiot for not figuring this out sooner

5. Now he will be miserable for the rest of his life, should have just stopped

Epilogue

1. I saw Jocasta killing herself coming

2. It would suck to be him i think

3. I think its creepy he poked his eyes out that must hurt

4. I think its good that Creon is taking over for Oedipus

5. Sad ending i knew it, why cant there be a happy ever after?

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Jason Tonoli

Ms.Vargo

English 4-AP
04/08-09

Fictional-Blindness Story

Matt hated Black people. He hated them with a passion, everything they stood for, how they acted; the music they listened to, and all, in his opinion were just trash. He always thought of them as a lesser people, not worthy of much. He hate there sobs stories and how they always talked and he hated the gangs they made that caused so many lives. Of course he didn’t know many black people himself. In fact he knew none. He avoided them as much as possible and when he did have to be around them, like in class, he would do his best to make them look absolutely stupid, which in his opinion, was not such a hard task. That is, until he met Victoria.

He met her walking to his car after a long day at school; she was also walking to her car, with of the girls that Matt had known since his freshman year. He stopped to say hello to the girl he knew and then he spotted Victoria she was dressed in jeans that he thought were very nice and a blue dressy shirt that he also adored, and then he saw her face, he couldn’t keep his eyes off of her. After that following day he did his best to get her to fall for him, always flirting and being very nice. He got the guts to finally ask her one day and she said “yes”. He was so happy and they talked a lot. 

 He soon found out that she was actually half black but he had decided to put it aside and accept her for who she was a person. She influenced him very much and got him into rap music and even made some very nice African American friends.  Before he even realized he was not racist any longer but now saw people for what was on the inside, not outside.

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Scene 1
1 so this is ophelias service
2 I think it’s random that hamlet is there if he doesn’t know
3 it’s hamlet holding the skull famous
4 I think that hamlet is thinking to much about death now maybe forshadoeing his own
5 why is the grave digger digging up other skulls for ophelias burial??

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Scene 1
1 I knew queen would tell on hamlet
2 I knew queen wouldn’t repent like she was asked too
3 queen totally betrayed hamlet
4 now queen knows for sure hamlets mad
5 king once again making hamlets childhood friends work for him
Scene 2
1 why won’t hamlet tell his childhood friends where the body is
2 I like how hamlet is always mesong with them
3 I like how hamlet says to them the king is a false king
4 I think that his friends have betrayed him and he thinks it to
5 hamlet knows that king will dispose of them once he’s done using his old friends when he says there like a sponge
Scene 3
1 I really like what hamlet says about polinious being at dinner with the worms
2 it’s good that hamlet told them where the body is
3 the king really wants hamlet to go to England
4 the king is going to have hamlet killed
5 of course I don’t think that kings plan will work

Scene 4
1 fortinbras is dumb
2 why would fortinbras fight for a worhless piece of land
3 this guy is to much into his honor
4 this is very significant to hamlet abut the whole honor thing
5 this really challenges him and he decides everything will be action for now on

Scene 5
1 I can’t believe ophelia has gone mad
2 why doesn’t the queen want to talk to her ?
3 ophelia has gone mad because of her wfather and hamlet I think
4 I hope laertes kills the king
5 now laertes is onwed by king so sad

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scene 1
1 I knew that guildenstine and his rosencrantz wouldn’t find anything out
2 wow poloniuos is such a suck up
3 I don’t think ophelia is really in to the whole hamlet thing she’s always just on the side silent
4 I think the king is going to be disapponted
5 I think it’s messed up what he is saying to ophelia

Scene 2
1 I think hamlets plan is really good
2 nice name for the play I think that’s really funny
3 hamlets plan works and king got upset
4 horatio saw the king to so now they know for sure
5 I think it’s funny how hamlets child hood friends have taken the kings side

Scene 3
1 why is king sending hamlet to England
2 the king is praying to god but he knows that god won’t forgive him
3 I think hamlet should have killed the king
4 in this scene you can see hamlets confliting thoughts on killing the king
5 I think hamlet just missed his only chance to kill the king

Scene 4
1 polonius is such a sneak he’s everywhere always trying to gain king and queens favor
2 I think polinious shouldn’t have been sneaking around and he wouldn’t have gotten killed
3 I think hamlet has gone mad and the ghost really wasn’t there
4 I don’t like how in the play they rede to to queen as queen sometimes and gertrude other times
5 I don’t think the queen will listen to hamlet

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